Particulars By Allison Heim
My mother swears up and down that my father sat on his corner of the bed the night after his death in the usual manner to pick his toes.
She is normally a skeptic, but I’m positive this was leftover energy, the last undeveloped negative of a routine I don’t question. Being gone is being nothing but creaks, which she promised
were mice but are actually reverberations of the past year; open the windows and echoes of arguments and smart-assing and slaps from spankings as unexpected as mushy apples bounce around for ages
then float out and burst in sunlight. A phenomenon commonly known as dust.
Some harmonica notes, low laughter, and the essence of cartoons seep in to pluck my skin silly and remind
my blood to grin and bear it— spirits live like low buzzing in the carpet, also known as fleas to my mother. As with the tic the heater makes when it comes on just once in winter
like a trick backbone, often I am nudged by germs of captured conversation pushing the surface, ghosts of love now a parasite nuisance.
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